Day 24:Weigh In

I woke up this morning, took a deep breath and hopped on the scale. The verdict? -2 lbs! 216! Hurray!

I went to the community center and joined their fitness center yesterday. I will go there on rainy days I don't use my trampoline or videos. I think variety is going to be a good thing. The whole time I was on the elliptical and treadmill yesterday I kept telling myself that if I just do this for 20-30 min most days of my life, then I NEVER have to feel so miserable as I was before again. One foot in front of the other.

I have my first difficult social function, a luncheon and Easter egg hunt. I have decided to try to eat normal portions of everything that looks good and maybe even eat some candy. Then? Right back on track. I plan on enjoying myself because this new way of living is indeed about living, not being miserable. If I deprive myself to much I am going to go right back to where I was 3 weeks ago.

I feel so good, and not just about the numbers on the scale. I feel in control.

Day 21: Real Life

Today was a hard day. I was stuck in the house all day with grumpy kids and I was SLEEPY and the baby was sick and wouldn't nap and you know what? I still ate healthy. I wanted to eat for comfort. But I didn't. I also didn't exercise, but I think that 5 or 6 days a week at this point is a healthy start.

I am trying out my own plan of having a 90% rule. If I eat good 90% of the time then the other 10% I can have some wiggle room. What this translates to is that out of 21 meals in a week, if I eat well for 19 of them, I can be free to enjoy a bit at a couple of meals when we are out with friends or at a party. Seems reasonable to me.

I will get to test this theory this weekend at an Easter egg hunt luncheon.

Wish me luck.

Day 19: Bring It

The blogs listed in the sidebar are a source of endless inspiration to me. I feel like I can take on the world. I think I am going to get Netflix so that I can try out some Tae Bo videos. I was bummed that they don't have Turbo Jam, but I have always wanted to give Billy Blanks a run for his money so I guess I should start there.

I have pretty much been exercising six days a week. Alternating between walking around the fitness trail (2.5 miles) for 45 min. and doing 25 min of trampoline jogging the rest of the days. I love my trampoline! But I also need to mix it up and I think some exercise videos might be just the thing.

Also, I am a total A-hole and I weighed again today. Guess what! I'm up a pound. That's what I deserve for being such a looky-loo.

Why did I do that?

I had mentioned earlier why I was not weighing. Then, stupid me, went and weighed. And again today, you know, to get the first thing in the morning weight. When I saw that the number hadn't gone down, I felt so deflated. And also fat.

If I can't handle a tiny disapointment, how am I going to hang tough and do this thing?

Today, I am going to put away the damned scale and reach deep down in myself for resolve and strength.

The Measurements

R Forearm- 11 1/2
R upper arm- 16 3/4
R Thigh-26 1/2
R Calf- 17
Hips- 50 1/2
Waist-44 1/2
Bust-47
Neck-15

Come on girls! There's work to do!

Day 17: Ok, ok, I give

Soooooo, I drug out the scale today because I am crazy. With a side of The Looney. I weigh less than I thought I did! Mid-day weight is......drumroll.....218.5. That leaves 38.5 lbs to get down to my pre-baby weight of 180.

So there we have it. I am aiming for a lb. a week. Slow going, but you know what? I'm worth it. My girls are worth it.

Wish me luck that I will make it through the 1 year old birthday party today without shoving my pie hole full of lasagna and cake.

Day 16:The Groove

I think that I am starting to get the hang of this. I am finding some little miracles along the way. The biggest being that when I don't eat sugar, I don't crave sugar. I am satisfied with healthy choices.

You will notice that, for the time being at least, I do not weigh in. This is because I have a touch of Scale Madness and have found that when losing weight it is too discouraging to see the fluctuations. Like I said before, I know that I have 100 lbs to lose. I am a size 20-22 pants and an 18-20 shirt. I will keep you posted as things loosen up and when I periodically weigh in.

So. How did I get so damned fat? Easy. Two babies in less than two years, endless pans of brownies and gallons of Coke. I gained 25 lbs a kid and was already 50 lbs overweight. I could still shop at regular stores before the babies...barely. I have been using nursing as an excuse for the past year, but seriously, no one needs to eat fries and burritos all day to breastfeed.

I have to get this weight down so that I can be the mother I want to be. I had a fat mom. I don't want to be one. I remember the shame and guilt I carried with me as a child and I don't want my girls to experience the same thing. The way the story goes, it was parent teacher night when I was in the 2nd grade. The teacher told me that our parents would be coming! To our classroom! To sit in our desks! Holy shit. Not so much. So with my mind racing, I went to my teacher and asked if she would put a chair next to my desk because my mom? Well, she was very.......tall. I never want my girls to have to know that kind of panic. I want to be the mom full of energy who goes outside and plays! Not the fat woman tucked in the house.

The plan I am following is simple. Whole foods. Nothing processed except small amounts of whole grains. Vegetables. Fruits. Nuts. Lean Meats. Fish. So far I feel great and it hasn't been hard because my husband rocks. I also exercise 5 days a week. Two 45 minute walks and three twenty five minute sessions running on my rebounder (mini trampoline)

This has to work. It just has to.