Day 37: Thinking Thin

I watched the 2nd episode of I Can Make You Thin last night and despite it's infomercial feel, I quite enjoyed it. I don't think the tapping will be all that useful as emotional eating isn't a huge problem for me. Or maybe it is? Is it?

I am entering a phase where I am really analyzing my food intake and the hows and whys of my eating patterns. I also am following the suggestion from the show and others to Think Thin. Interesting concept. I can pretend that I am already thin. What will I eat? How will I exercise? What will I feel like? I am really having a good time with this and am leaving food on my plate and this morning had a major NSV when I ordered a tall sized nonfat latte instead of a venti. Many calories saved and I enjoyed it just as much.

Today is my husband's birthday and we are going out for fish and chips. I was totally freaking out about it for the past week because my baby is turning one (one year already?) on Monday and her big party is tomorrow. There are three cakes in my house. I love cake. I had to take a deep breath and calm myself down. I realized that HEY YOU, you don't have to pig out! Order the small fish and don't finish it! Eat until you are FULL and then STOP shoving it into your gaping cake hole.

I think I am going to be ok.

Day 33: One Third

Here we are about one third into this first 100 days of the rest of my life and I thought I would share of the changes that have happened in my life:

• This is the one I am most excited about! I can get out of bed in the morning without feeling like I am tearing my toenails out. Awesome.
• My skin has cleared up.
• I am full ALL THE TIME. I know. Makes no sense to be eating a third of the calories I am used to and be stuffed, but it is true. The types of food I am eating are so packed full of nutrients that I can barely get it all down. My goal is to eat 1500-1800 calories a day, but I think I am between 1200-1400 most days.
• Eating out is no fun anymore. Whatever they have that is healthy usually tastes like crap so why would I want to spend money on that when I can have home cooking with none of the preservatives or Franken Food.
• I can still indulge sometimes. Like one meal a week I don't pay attention to the calories so closely.
• I don't feel deprived. I FEEL GREAT!

Sample day food:

Breakfast: Double fiber english muffin with 1T natural peanut butter, 1/2T raw honey and 4 dried apricots

Lunch: Homemade bean and veggie soup and an apple

Snack: Soy Crisps

Dinner: Veggie chicken stirfry with brown rice and Strawberries

All real food, all healthy and delicious! Did I mention that it is filling?

To anyone who is thinking that they are too far gone to change.......YOU CAN DO THIS! If I can, you can!

Meme

Found this at Dottie's Place and I had to do it!

1. Cellphone: pocket
2. Relationship: amazing
3. My hair: normal
4. Work: WAHM
5. My sibling/siblings: sister
6. My favorite thing: daughters
7. My dream last night: scary
8. Favorite drink: coke
9. Dream car: electric
10. The room I’m in : diningroom
11. My shoes: loafers
12. My fears: fearsome
13. What do I want to be in 10 years: vivacious
14. Who did I hang out with this weekend: family
15. What I am not good at: skiing
16. Muffin: poppyseed
17. One of my wish list items: pool
18. Where I grew up: Oregon
19. Last thing I did: housework
20. Wearing: clothes
21. Not wearing: earings
22. My pets: heaven
23. My computer: busy
24. My life: fabulous
25. My mood: content
26. Missing: Dad
27. What I am thinking about right now: Easter
28. My car: Minivan
29. My kitchen: small
30. My weather: rainy
31. Favorite color: blue
32. Last time I laughed: today
33. Last time I cried: weeks
34. School: masters
35. Love: family

Day 31: Happy Easter!

Happy Easter! We are busy greeting the Easter Bunny and digging through baskets full of treasure (mostly non-food) with our church friends and family. As I mentioned, I am not going to obsess about the food I eat today. My mind is strong and tommorow I will get right back in step with where I was yesterday. But you know what? I am really not in the mood for candy. Yeah, weird, I know. So I will just listen to my body and if that means not candy, I will listen and obey.

Today I am grateful for this new way of living.

Day 28

Had a potluck tonight at church and did the best I could. Unfortunately there was nothing too healthy available. On the upside, there was nothing too tempting either. I mean tuna noodle casserole with stale oriental noodles on top? No thanks. So I made reasonable choices and stopped worrying about it.

I joined FitDay today and I am hoping to make it a habit. At least that way I can track what I am eating and doing so that if I stall or whatever all the information is right there. I have a planned candy indulgence on Easter because I love Easter candy and I don't think that the sweets that I eat ON holidays made me fat, but the shoveling in of cadbury eggs, M&Ms and peanut butter cups by the bucket load for a month before and after that did most of the damage. I think that enjoying the day, fitting in exercise and not bringing any candy home will mitigate the damage. I don't plan on going crazy and I also am only going to eat things that I really like so that I don't overdo.

Day 25: Peachy

Yesterday went great! I ate reasonable portions of everything, including cake (it was angelfood, but still. Cake!) I also had one glass of soda and 6 pieces of candy. You know what? I didn't feel guilty! I just went home and went to the gym, did an extra 5 minutes of cardio and went on with my night. Stranger still, I didn't eat dinner because I wasn't hungry. I still sat with my family and drank some water, but I was still full so why eat?

I watched that new show I Can Make You Thin last night and it was perfect timing because he claims that by eating only when you are hungry and stopping when you are full, you will lose weight naturally. I think that is true, but only when you are eating foods that don't induce hunger like HFCS or other simple carbs. I have been trying this today and it is the damndest thing, but I have eaten much less than usual and am not hungry. I think I will add this concept to my weightloss tool box.

Day 24:Weigh In

I woke up this morning, took a deep breath and hopped on the scale. The verdict? -2 lbs! 216! Hurray!

I went to the community center and joined their fitness center yesterday. I will go there on rainy days I don't use my trampoline or videos. I think variety is going to be a good thing. The whole time I was on the elliptical and treadmill yesterday I kept telling myself that if I just do this for 20-30 min most days of my life, then I NEVER have to feel so miserable as I was before again. One foot in front of the other.

I have my first difficult social function, a luncheon and Easter egg hunt. I have decided to try to eat normal portions of everything that looks good and maybe even eat some candy. Then? Right back on track. I plan on enjoying myself because this new way of living is indeed about living, not being miserable. If I deprive myself to much I am going to go right back to where I was 3 weeks ago.

I feel so good, and not just about the numbers on the scale. I feel in control.